Archive for July, 2008

To be in pain

Posted in Uncategorized on July 29, 2008 by pensivelawyer

It’s there….you can feel it in ever move you make…..there is no escape.

You try as you may and the only thing you may be able to do is reduce its intensity but then, when you do that, you realize that its not a good thing…..and you actually prefer to feel it in toto….you see, its a sweet pain you have and its something you begin to enjoy, as i am slowly beginning to do.

Yes, i’ve started working out……and pushing myself harder and harder with each passing day……each day is about eclipsing yesterday’s record and striving harder and higher…..its about taking things to a new level and making sure that by the end of it, you crave that hot shower and a hard bed….

This ride is like a roller coaster….at times you’re off the wagon because you just can’t take it no more…..and at other times, its  the high you’ve been waiting all your life for. Kinda depends on which way you’re looking at it.

The hardest part is getting in….but once you’re in and on that treadmill… know that the journey has begun and then, its simply a question of pushing the pedal to the metal… i am now doing.

“So why spend all our time undressing our bandages
When we’ve the ultimate key to the cause right here all underneath.”

–Underneath by Alanis Morissette 


Horse trading

Posted in Uncategorized on July 26, 2008 by pensivelawyer

Dont you love what we have become?

The last week has been sheer insanity for us Indians. We wake up each morning to find newspapers screaming drama filled headlines and by evening, circumstances have changes so much that the next morning is filled with headlines quite contrary to what we read the day before. A political see-saw of sorts and for a country that prides itself on being a democracy (and thereafter achieving 8+% growth and more nonsense), we sure are a confused lot.

Is it that we don’t know who to vote for because the choice before us is between the devil and the deep sea? Or is it that we just have stopped caring?

It was for this reason that a proposal was made some time ago that we need to have an ‘abstain‘ button on the electronic voting machines…to put it simply, the voter pushes the ‘abstain‘ button if he wants to make a point….the point being ‘fine, you got me here to vote (which used to be and is still a major issue), but none of you clowns are good enough’.

I don’t think we need any more evidence for the need for this kind of a button when we see the manner in which our elected leaders have behaved in the recent trust vote. Lets face facts, it was simply a question of how much one party was willing to offer……a money-for-vote scam……and for that, we have only ourselves to blame……cause directly or indirectly, those idiots are up there because of us.

The scary part is, we see this behaviour permeating through the various realms of society where the very fundamentals of who we are as people is challenged….Needless to say, repercussions run deep and hard and if this trend continues, the future is slowly but surely losing its glimmer.

Of course, another point of view can be that in such adversity, we find opportunity to glimmer because a lone candle standing in the dark is easily seen, even from a distance, if you get my drift.

“Hey girl, you’re late
And those planes, they don’t wait”

–These days by Rascal Flatts



Posted in Uncategorized on July 22, 2008 by pensivelawyer

The simple joys of typing on an unused keyboard…..takes a li’l gettin used to but the soft ‘rebound’ or ‘spring’, call it what you may, in each key pressed shows its newness.

Yes, i finally got my new computer. The ordeal that is transferring my data must now begin and will take some time.

As life plays its hand of cards, i kinda pulled back on my irrational desires insofar as the configuration was concerned. Hell with the 22″ and 25″ monitors i was considering. The 19″ i finally chose just about fits on my tiny table! The only place where i refused to budge was the RAM. Yup, maximized it to 4 Gigs and right this moment, it feels like this li’l baby is gonna shake herself silly right here, right now…..;)



Posted in Uncategorized on July 22, 2008 by pensivelawyer
Last night my mom and I were sitting in the living room, talking about life… In between, we talked about the idea of living or dying…..
I said to her: ‘ Mom, never let me live in a vegetative state, totally dependent on machines and liquids from a bottle. If you see me in that state I want you to disconnect all the contraptions that are keeping me alive, I’d much rather die’.
Then my mom got up from the sofa with this real look of admiration towards me…and proceeded to disconnect the TV, the Cable, the Dish, the DVD, the Computer, the Cell Phone, the Ipod, and the Xbox, and then went to the fridge and threw away all my beer!!

Time goes by…

Posted in Uncategorized on July 17, 2008 by pensivelawyer

Her time had come and she went without so much as a whisper…..a shadow of her original self.

Starting her up was like the coarse roar of a carnivore… engine just aching to be warmed up and let loose upon an empty road…..she took what i gave and took it well……of course, when she is THAT old, you can give just THAT much right? When she warmed up, she was a force to be reckoned with…..

Loads of idiots had smoke in their snickering faces when they tried pulling their cars next to her…..2,800 cc of diesel power…..emanating from a straight 6……smooth as silk…..she could pull away from most of todays heaps without any trouble at all and yet give an tremendous average….a deadly combination that was only amplified by gear ratios that were made for pulling…….she ALWAYS had the last laugh.

A bench front seat that reclined like a home sofa ensured optimum driving comfort…..memories were made in her. Goodbye my baby…..i will miss you….

“I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can’t break my spirit – it’s my dreams you take.”

–Goodbye my lover by James Blunt

The village

Posted in Uncategorized on July 13, 2008 by pensivelawyer

“What is the Village?” some may ask.

“The Village was a trip that was meant to happen many many times till date, but has finally happened only now.”

I managed to eke out some time from this crazy life and figured that as i had to be in North India before and after this weekend, rather than travel up and down needlessly, i might as well make the trip into the Village. Now don’t get me wrong, its perfectly simple for me to fly back into Bombay on a friday and back into north India on a monday but this opportunity was actually a god send so i decided to snatch it up……and i made it happen.

The Village has remained a nemesis of sorts…..crazy number of planned trips have been cancelled and talk of this visit has actually diminshed…..until we made it happen…..and what a trip it has turned out to be thus far.

From last minute scares of not having enough time set aside to make a flight to splsh and dash runs to the airport in peak hour traffic and culminating in a chiller beer at the airport lounge in the safe knowledge that i was able to make it happen….it was all part of this crazy crazy saga of a weekend.

What made it special?

Try taking the last flight outta Delhi into the Village, dressed to the hilt in a work suit……and walk into the searing heat but more importantly, into the arms of waiting friends, who can’t believe that years of persistence have paid off and the trip is now reality. We are together in the Village.

What does one do in the Village?

Wrong question. The right question is what does one NOT do in the Village. Well, some people defi ought not to drink bhang …;), but the rest of us follow one simple rule….we don’t think…..we feel. We DO what we FEEL like doing…..and thats what makes the trip into the Village a stress reliever…..and a must-do-once-more. Try experiencing the joy of warm sultry days, chilled mansions, great people and an absolute nutcase of a pug. Try endless cups of agyar ghas chai and strong coffee (hey, i can’t not have my coffee now can i)……try yummy Tunda kebabs and chicken dhansak……try living in a 250 year old palace…’ll realize that each moment is special……there is no alternate to this.

As i find myself winding down to the inevitable end of this blissful insanity, i intend to come here again……and i intend to make it soon.

I’ll see ye all backin hell soon…..until then, cheers.

“Thats not the beginning of the end
Thats the return to yourself”

— The return to innocence by Enigma

Crash landing

Posted in Uncategorized on July 7, 2008 by pensivelawyer

Its a beautiful feeling to be flying…’re on the top of the world…..everything is far below you…..until you realize that you got engine trouble!

I (re)started gymming last week and broke through the warm up sessions and the circuit training buildups designed to minimize muscle ache without so much as a whisper…..and in doing so reminded myself of the hard fact… build up on something, you need to tear it down first (a.k.a. muscle synthesis)…..and i pretty much did all that….except for one small issue…..i got hit with the friggin viral!

So from a major high (which is the adrenalin rush you get from a hard hard workout), i crash land into body numbing pain and a horribly congested body n throat… bad that i’m pretty much in and out of consciousness and all i want is that cup of adrak ka chai (yeah, coffee aint workin this time).

Got some Tiesto playing and i’m kinda hoping that this ends soon….cause i need to get off my lazy ass and back into the gym….